I woke up earlier this week and just decided that it was enough. I was tired. Tired of being broke despite my really good job. Tired of being unhappy, when I really have a lot going for me. Tired of watching TV while living in an outdoor paradise. Tired…. just tired… so tired.
My name is Jon. I’m 38, I’m healthy, I live in paradise and I’m unhappy.
I do so many things that are not helping my meet my goals (still need to pin those down). I do a great many things that actively undermine my efforts. It’s really a kick in the nuts and that is something I really don’t enjoy.
So what the fuck do I do about this situation I have put myself in (this is an important point because I chose through action or inaction every step that got me where I am today). Obviously, doing the same shit isn’t likely to be the correct path. Same shit in…. same shit out. That is what I’m trying to avoid.
- I’ve run at lunch the past three days and I’m really tired. I’m going to keep doing that, exercise helps combat depression. That is a fact. So exercise should continue.
- I paid a bunch of bills today that have been nagging at me. It’s nice to get out from under them. It’s nice to be more or less “caught up.”
- I need to take care of my health. I currently have a super old contact lens irritating my right eye. That needs to be fixed. I currently have a temporary tooth from my accident last year. That needs to be fixed. Health!
Time to do some adult stuff. Time to grow up.